AUTHOR: tbooty DATE: 11/22/2004 03:16:00 PM ----- BODY: i am so confused. not only am i confused, i don't know what to do about it. here's the deal..... i think i like the fireman too much. this in and of itself wouldn't be a bad thing, except we still haven't met yet. we are SUPPOSED to meet tonight, however i haven't heard from him yet and it's already 3:30. i'm thinking that it probably won't happen tonight. we'll have to see. i mean i realize that he works 3 jobs and all that, but if you really wanted to meet someone, wouldn't you make the effort to get ahold of them to firm up plans? if that wasn't enough to think about, things with river boy are getting interesting. not only does he want me to be his roomie when he moves out, but he likes me. now, i've known that he likes me for a little bit, but even though i adore him i haven't let myself like him since he hasn't been free. now that he IS going to be free? i don't know what to do. i know that i could totally fall in love with this guy if i let myself, i just didn't know if my feelings would be reciprocated. until today. he told me today that he "could see it" happening between us. WOW. NOW WHAT THE HELL DO I DO? i mean, the fireman is just about perfect on paper. but we haven't met. and that of course means that i don't know how the face to face is gonna go. meanwhile, river boy and i have been seeing each other on occassion since the end of july and are friends and i know how the face to face is with him. HELP! any suggestions guys?? --------