AUTHOR: tbooty DATE: 12/08/2004 03:46:00 PM ----- BODY: so you guys know that there have been a lot of guys that have "wanted to meet me" in the last couple of months. some of them i've met and some of them i haven't. of the ones i've actually met, there's only been 1 or 2 that i would have liked to see on a regular basis. one of those guys? is married. (insert the "duh duh duh" music here.) i know i should walk away. hell, i should run in the opposite direction. but i don't. want. to. this is the guy who rescued me from being stood up by the fireman. he came and had a drink with me. (well actually 3) he cheered me up. he told me what an idiot the fireman was to not show up. (kymmie, i love you, but shut it.) all in all he made me feel like it wasn't my fault that the fireman didn't show up. because at that point in time? it totally felt like it was. (even though i knew it wasn't.) and best of all? he's a genuinely nice guy. i was very vulnerable that night and he didn't try to take advantage of that. even though he wanted to. even though i wanted him to. so now i don't know what to do. i know what polite society dictates that i should do, but i don't know what i will do, and that's what scares me the most. i've changed a lot over the past few months. if you had asked me 6 months ago what i'd do in this position? i would have turned around and walked away. now though? i honestly can't tell you what i'll do. i mean, it's not like this would be anything more than a fling on my end, but still. do i even want to go down that road? and if i DO? what's next? doing drugs? turning tricks? what? i honestly haven't a freaking clue. --------