AUTHOR: tbooty DATE: 5/09/2005 11:43:00 AM ----- BODY: dear writer that i adore, there have been a few ups and downs in our relationship so far. i know that there will be many more, but i hope they are more ups than downs. i know we've only known each other for 8 weeks, but i can't imagine my life without you now. we've had a rough spot the last week or so, and i want you to know that i am SO SORRY that i've hurt you. i hope you know that it wasn't intentional and was just a by product of my not being in a relationship for longer than i care to remember. oh, and of me trying to remember how to not worry about things. it's been so long since i've felt anything remotely close to what i feel for you that it's making me do crazy things. it's like they say in that new movie "a lot like love". "if you're not willing to make a fool of yourself, you don't deserve to be in love." well, i've been a fool. (unfortunately not in a good way.) i hope that you can forgive me so that we can move past this. i do love you and want you to be in my life. i'm sorry that i haven't figured out how to adequately show you that. i'm so proud of you and the wonderful business opportunities that have come your way. i know that you've worked very hard to get to this "break". it's very exciting and i couldn't be happier for you. i also know that due to this, you'll have less time to spend with me. i'll be ok, as i can always touch back to what you told me last week: "well in order to take care of you, I need to be as successful at my job as I can be right now." while it will be hard to be away from you, that statement will make it all worth while. while i wish we could go back to the time before i hurt you, that's impossible. all i can hope for now is that we'll get through this and that it will make us stronger as a couple. we've both said that "if it's worth working for, it's worth having." i just hope you still feel that way about us. it's amazing to me that i can feel this strongly about you in so short a period of time. but there it is. the next few weeks will be the true test, i think. you'll be busy in pre-production for the films and most likely will be travelling back and forth to los angeles. in between that, you'll have your kids, and your other business ventures to take care of. i know that leaves little time for us. i hope that by not being demanding of your time, that you don't view that as me "giving up" on us. that's not how i view it at all. i just know that for the next few weeks, you'll be VERY busy and i don't want you to feel badly if you can't spend time with me. i know that there will be plenty of time for you to spend with me once the films are done. forever yours, "babe" --------